Yesterday I subbed a yoga class for one of my fellow Yoga House teachers. When Hillary Harvey asked me to sub her class of course I said yes! It would mean helping out a friend and getting to share my passion another night of the week why not?! I began to think about how subbing her class really took me full circle in my past year. In November of 2018 I decided I really needed to make a life change. I had lost my yoga practice over the summer and had picked up a home practice in October again but was extremely nervous to go to class. I had been to the yoga house once or twice years before so I picked their beginner class on Friday night with Hillary. A friend of mine came to support me and get back into his yoga practice as well. I was terrified that I wasn’t good enough or that I wouldn’t be able to do some of the poses. Hillary made me feel right at home. I quickly realized after continuing to take her class weekly that I could do this and that the more I came the more I would grow. The moment I connected with yoga I’d always thought I might like to be a teacher. The Yoga House offers a training that you can start at any time as long as you complete all the modules within two years. I had thought of taking the training here the year before this one as well but again did not feel ready. That years training had started in November. Having just gotten back into a steady practice I again felt like I was not good enough. I just kept putting my life on hold because I did not feel ready or good enough. Hillary and my friend who had started coming to yoga with me talked me into joining the training in January 2019. They both told me I could do it and believed in me. Throughout the training, throughout all the yoga classes I took (I dove right into my practice once I started the training so I took a lot of classes), with all the practice teaching I did (some of it being a disaster) not once did anyone tell me I was not good enough or that I could not do it. I was flooded with encouragement. I quickly grew to realize that I was the only one that was this hard on myself. I was the only one holding myself back. I was good enough to be a yogi, I mean just showing up and putting the work in even if you never nail a pose that is the whole point of the asana practice. I was most certainly meant to teach yoga and yes of course I would have days where class would not go as planned and even had a class that was so bad I cried my eyes out after and said I would never teach again. That only lasted a day. Throughout the last year so much in my life has changed. There were most certainly hard times and also some really amazing moments. Once I believed in myself and found love for myself ( its not easy we all have our moments of self doubt and dislike) things began to fall into place. I now teach the same class slot Friday night at The Yoga House that was my first class which lead me to this moment in time. I am so honored and blessed to be living this life. Moral of my story stop being so hard on yourself. Tell yourself that you can do it. Let fear gently push you not stop you. YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH!